denise'sjournal ♥,

Monday, May 31 ♥

l♥ved,

I believe the 'greate being above' is always watching over me. For instance, putting me in situations which I hate to be in to make me a 'stronger' person (I prayed to be whenever I'm in some crisis). Therefore, I am now in a company that is stingy (no. 1 hated trait), narrow minded (no. 2) and serious moral problems (no.3). These 3 are like the classic favourites on my hate-list. 1) Stingy My cubicle is very near the pantry, thus, I can hear almost everything. My ladyboss who is also our human resource manager ( I believe it was a parachuted postion) said loudly to our general secretary 'No company in Singapore has a pantry that provides everything OKAY. I believe we are the only ones that pay for the hefty electrical bills (generated from the microwave, kettle and fridges that are ever so common in other companies). You guys should feel appreciative but instead, you are helping with the upkeep.' Firstly, the pantry is NOT DIRTY.In fact, it is one of the cleanest I’ve ever seen (corporate-style). Even though the company does not employ a real cleaner (done by a male Bangladesh worker), the female employees help clean up as and when after they have used it. I’m not sure what the ladyboss is angry at, but it seems to me that whenever she sees the detergent half-empty or a speck of something2 on the basin, she will start her row. The funny thing is, if she’s such a clean freak (the inference I make from her daily row about hygiene and how some type of fungus will grow and we’ll all die) why does she have mouldy cheese in her private fridge, rotten chilly and a disgusting odour everything you open the door? Therefore, I just think that the part on ‘giving’ (allowing its employees to use the pantry-which all companies do) is not sincere. Therefore, it becomes STINGY. How can you not allow your employees to use the pantry just because they forgot to re-fill the detergent or the soap? 2) Narrow minded They hired me because they wanted ‘new blood’. But so far all the ‘new blood’ that I’ve been injecting has been rejected because they ‘don’t like’ or they ‘don’t think I understand’ or they find it ‘not special’. I’m like ‘WTF’.... and ‘WHY DID U HIRE ME IN THE FIRST PLACE-WASTE OF TIME!’. In addition, they have this thing of not approving your leave if you are not in a dire situation or when feel like a short holiday. 3) Serious moral problems Whenever an employee is sick, medical bills cannot be claimed in full, only a certain percentage, because it is deemed as unfair to the healthy employees. To me, it sounds like the healthy employees are jealous of the benefit and would not mind to exchange it for poor health, just so they can get some benefit. LAME, STUPID AND FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE HEARING THAT SOMEONE WOULD RATHER BE SICK. There you go -my dire situation.... I am crossing dates to my pay days and the end of my probation so I can lie to them that I love my job but would want to pursue a post graduate when I feel stupid (for killing unnecessary brain cells at work) everyday.