I.feel.emo.
I don't understand the cosmic purpose of everything.
I just can't jump into this whirlpool without calculating the risks... I used to be able to. I was a believer. After many years of heartbreaks and some really bad heartbreaks... I keep questioning. Is that good or bad? I find it utterly unfair. Because if we've met earlier, I wouldn't be like this. The deeper I go, the harder it is to let go. Why did I let it happen when I know it was going to be hard... but I couldn't not let it happen. Its just not me.