Wednesday, May 23'♥
I like giving weird and suggestive titles to my blog recently...
My bro in the states is asking me WHY ON EARTH I CHOSE AUST!! (the exclaimation marks are true cos... ya.. i can practically HEAR him in Singapore)... I'm like... WHY NOT?
I think he wanted me to go states so i can stay with him.. but i'm like.. i don't like the state he stays in. And by being in states doesn't make me NEAR HIM. We'll just share the same TIME.. and prolly holidays. SO.. i might as well go aust and BE NEARER to my parents rite.
But the place i really wanna be is that london college that i posted a few many weeks ago... but the fees are crazy.
ANYWAY.. i celebrated my b'dae.. and time to do serious stuffs besides wondering why one earth someone actually thought that i might for the tiniest bit need a toothbrush holder. I'm going to get the laptop.
It's like the most important decision in a girl's life besides deciding what to wear! *bimbotic smile*
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hope u're feeling excited reading this cos i'm excited simply by typing it! *waits for response*....
ok... I was deciding between the MAC and the HP (ok, sorry i don't have FULL LENGTHY product name.. the laptop is just a laptop so we shld just differentiate it by colour and brand)...
Both have about the same specs (ok... i had to bring evan along for this.. i won't be claiming credit cos i know nobody would believe me).. the MAC is $2188 and HP is $2499 but i have to that office thing for MAC for like $50 (pls dont be dumb, its pirated) but HP i get a free 2G thumbdrive... BUT i get $100 vouchers for buying a MAC.
SO.. i think the MAC is a better deal... though i gotta spend a bit more time to get use to the MAC..but its so carrie bradshaw (sexandthecity)!
Pics taken during my b'dae will be up SOON... if the gals send me soon enough! :)
Thursday, May 17'♥
This is so 'ma fun'.... troublesome...
This is why, my reluctance to celebrate my b'dae increase steadily every year..
Besides the fact that i'm GETTING OLDER (never a good thing for any women), hitting the big 2 is just painful. I can't imagine blowing 2 big candles when the memory of 1 big one is still as fresh as cold storage's anything (they're the fresh food people remb?)...
Also, its the time where u ... or rather i become a selfish+sensitive bitch because its MY DAY. ok.. inevitably.
Its starting to get on me now. Because i actually have some friend who said i shld just celebrate next year because.. it'll be my 21st. I'm like.... zzZZzz... Because u can't be 20 years old TWICE. And its not compound interest!
I thought it was quite mean of that friend to say such a thing.. i wouldn't be around next year b'cos i'll prolly be having my exams n down under.
AND YES... i wouldn't be around soon... cos i'm really going. I've been waiting that a REACTION to come by but NO.. NONE. Nobody gave me a REACTION or something like 'i'll miss u' or u know, just any kind of reaction. I really doubt my existence in everyone's hearts eh. Its hard not to... imagine U in my shoes. Isn't getting a bit doubtful already.
Ok... the insecurities are eating me up.
Anyway.. after 20 years of b'dae celebrating, i'm kind of tired dealing with myself and waves of emotions. I should just make it as regular and as normal. ya.. like a regular thing...