Friday, July 29'♥
It doesn't matter anymore... my heart has turned cold to all ur hopeful promises which u never seem to keep...
I wonder... am i petty and have i not been generous enough... or am i that needy?
I wonder... am i asking for too much... we don't talk for more than 3 hrs.... A WEEK!
Is it so wrong for u to understand and give me more?
When things seem to be too good to be true in the start... maybe they are.
When its so unbearable... maybe it is... time to let go.
i am so confused... help.
Monday, July 25'♥
Mourning over Dumbledore's death...the greatest wizard i've known (though with limited knowledge about other wizards..). He died beneath Professor Snape's wand...can u believ it?!!....grrr... Dumbledore trusted him for 6 yrs! n he betrayed Dumbledore!....
Yes its only a book... but surely feelings will conceive after reading 6 books about Harry Potter and 'em! Its almost 3000 pages of pure magical journey with Harry Potter! how can u not?!!....
No mood to blog... cos of the ending... i'm sad.
Thursday, July 21'♥
I'm angry!! i thought i made my way down to joyville but i was thrown back to the bed of slugs!
He shouted over the phone.
Now i understand why people would rather stay single... because They don't have to be thrown around by People they love which hurts!
i'm seething with anger right now... so i can't study EC..(a bit irrelevant... but angry ppl how to study right?)
i'll return to my 'nothing happened' mode again IF he calls n say smthg nice... GOD i HATE MYSELF... kill me pls? just drag a sharp object along my neck....
Wednesday, July 20'♥
I think I'm useless.. n hopeless... cos after that incident(previous entry).. he called again and I pretended nth happened.. cos he sounded really nice n happy on the phone. Sigh.. but I was happy though... that he was happy with something I can't exactly remember.
I studied the whole day today (explains why I sound so boring cos studying makes me a boring person which explains why most school teachers are not married cos they study tooo muccchh which makes them boring... get it?)... and watched a bit of tv.. (see so boring rite...)
I want to blog about this theory which I think is pretty accurate. About female teachers. U know why most of the female teachers are still Miss XXX when they're already 30+? When they hit 40 they'll change to Mdm.. this way is to let u guess her marital status but usually they aren't.. its just a smoke screen kinda thing.
U know why?
I think its because they're one of the worst dressers i've known.. serious. Just think back... ur old school days... how many of ur teachers are...at least up-to-date? In my sec school days which was not very far behind, I still saw some teachers with SHOULDER PADS!! Its like... omg lar.. and of course..the infamous flowery dress with sport shoes (mdm tay frm hkss)! ok they're all married teachers... can u imagine the hushbands?
Now the young and single (below 30) teachers... well... u might thinking of Mango! G2000! or even Topshop! ... bet it never ocurred to u the following names or description cos i really dunno the brand..Dr scholl's? Teddy bear socks? hmms... ankle length red checked dress with puffed sleeves? scrunchies? and some super high waist faded jeans they were during weekends! omg lar..... the image of the teddy bear socks is flooding my head now! and the teacher has like 4 pairs? and shoulder pads... but the subtle kind.. but still can tell there's shoulder pads there!
Lastly, i had a cca teacher who wore 'granny' panties (the super high waist n beige colour cotton painties).. i accidentally saw it when she lean over...omg larrrrr...
See? will any young male teacher with dreams of moulding the future go out with any of the above? What if she turns up for her movie date with her rainbow colour teddy bear socks n her Dr Scholl's scandals which looks similar to ... the elder women in ur hse's? And pair it with her... red checkered ankle dress which resembles something a doll maker would dress her dolls... *Note: Dolls and Barbie or Bratz is DIFFERENT.* and Dr Scholl's shoes when she's not even 40?! and who knows what's underneath it...brrr...
I'm not trying to be a style guru or smthg... I think it'll even be safer if they wore white round neck t-shirt with black pants. At least, they'll look their age.
What about male teachers u may wonder... well they're pretty safe. Because of all the existing sports brands around... they'll at least look normal but not.. u know.. stylish. But I hope they'll pay more attention to THEIR TEETH!!... I think MOE did not include the teachers during the 'brush ur teeth after recess' program during my pri sch days... because sometimes (quite a number of times) they still have REMAINS of their LUNCH in btwn their teeth! eww.... and lastly, u don't have to wear ur pants so high up ur chest. We know u're trying to hid a tummy underneath there...
Yes... we're only students after all...
Tuesday, July 19'♥
Grrr... i'm FURIOUS! kaninabu chao cheeby... ok i think i onli get the chao cheeby spelling rite! Anyways... how insensitive can he get lar!! I'm gonna start ranting like a dog now! or rather a mad bitch!
Its common test week n he's been busy... GOING OUT WITH HIS FRIENDS! Then they'll go places and come home at like 10 plus when his paper is 8.30 in the morning.. and i'm the one who worries abt he getting up on time!
Then i called to remind him abt his paper...
me: Hey! u should go home ready.. its late n u surely cant wake up tmr.
him: Ya.. but they're (his frens) still not done yet.. will go home after this.
me: oh but u have to study once u get home cos u've been out with ur frens till so late n u haven't started.*touchofsarcasm*
him:ya
me: I miss talking to u...
him: i miss u too but we'll have lots of time after the test...
I wanted to strangle him.
me: ok fine. Just study when u reach home. bye.
him: oh k bye.. (n the 3 words i can't bring myself to type)
Can't he read between the lines?!!!!!!!! Grrr...
To guys out there! If u can't fill ur gf's needs when she needs it... n u missed the window.. filling her needs after that is NEVER gonna work. She'll still rem the day u missed her window n when u both quarrel she'll still bring it up. Once u missed it! U missed it! Get it? We're all like that... at least i think so.
Tell me how can i not get angry?
Monday, July 18'♥
What a day... had OM paper today. It was okay.. like i don't know where i stand cos everyone has different answers and i couldn't check my answers with my neighbours during the test (u know what i mean.. peeking into their papers..) because they either have 'ant-like' handwrittings or they're just as clueless as i am. But still.. i'm happy i studied the whole day yesterday and did not succumb to my temptations (reading harry potter! what a feat rite?!!!!) or else i'll be miserable now!.. hahahahs..
I was almost late today... my test was at 8:30 but i woke up at like 7:44!!! my alarm didn't wake me! But i think she tried (yes! my phone is a she though she's blue! hahaha) her best... anyways.. guess what woke me?......
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Uh uh... not my mum...
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hahaha... u'll never guess!
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ok... i BITE MY TONGUE!!!
Hahaha... are u like laughing now? Well... i was dreaming about eating some cookies then i just BITE! ya... but my tongue was 2 secs slower in their reflexes so it got bitten! hahaha... n bled a little... then i woke up immediately! hahahs...and realised it was 7:44! After that i have 2 ulcers at the sides of my tongue (the ones i bite).
What a weird wake up call right? hahaha....
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If the above has already formed the impression of me in ur head a freak.. u're going to be blown away by what i'm did last nite... MUAHAHAHA *Scientist laughter*
I tried doing an experiment on myself yesterday....
It happened just last week. I was sound asleep in my dreams. I dreamt that i was pregnant and was very sad because when i walked over to my closet and opened to see the mirror i saw n felt stretch marks at my abdomen area.
When i woke up the next morning and stretched, i felt my abdomen area n i got like rigdes cos the shorts i was wearing was quite tight but i felt the same feeling when i was dreaming.. then i went to check the closet door... it was opened.. i usually close it cos the mirror is damn freaking...
oh my god.. did i sleepwalk?
All right, now talk abt the experiment... i wore back the same shorts and top and tried to think abt getting pregnant.. and i put a mat on beside the bed where my foot usually lands on both sides of the bed so when i step on smthg different i'll probably wake up or it'll appear in my dreams i'll know i sleep walked.
But of course... i dreamt of some cookies instead... so mission failed.. sigh...
I'll think of something better soon...
Friday, July 15'♥
I realised something... i hate people who pretend to be someone else they aren't... and even worse despise people who they think aren't as good as 'em..because they think that they are 'oh-so-high-up'!!! Why are there such mean people around?
It came to me this afternoon while i was trying to study (God knows why i got drifted there..). My friend told me about her new friend who always tries to speak English with a very exaggerated american accent though she has NEVER been there before and have NO close relatives/friends/whatever who studies there... and it gets even more irritating cos whenever they chat half-way her friend while automatically switch back to the normal singlish.
Well... its pretty obvious she not getting used to speaking which such an accent... and she doesn't want to get used to speakin our kind of english! What's so shameful about speaking proper english with the local accent? Just because she went to an intl. school for 1 yr or 2.... that's what she told my friend. And often when her friends don't quite understand what she's saying... she'll give the 'oh-my-god-u-don't-understand-english-?????' look to ridicule u.. and repeat herself with her in her weird accent again. And she's so damn plaguy proud about it.
I wanted to blog about this because.. jus look around u.. there're so many of this weird people around u. But please don't ask them 'Why u must slang?' because that will justify how 'pro' they are with their accent. We should just boycott them.
Wednesday, July 13'♥
I think this is pretty cool.... 'suicide is to tell God u can't fire me... because i quit!'
Funny eh?
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I have a lot to do and so little energy n time...
Just finished a book 'Memoirs of a Geisha' its... beautifully written. It brings u to another era, a hidden culture in Japan which people hardly know about. I'm glad that it is going to be made into movie and its coming out soon. I hope its as good as the book though. People... Read it! Its one of the best books i've read... best is still harry potter... n charlotte's web... awww... i still love that book i stole...ok... i din.. i jus din return it (wayyyy loooong time ago in my pri sch...)...
I've been hibernating at home reading... so kuai (as in good girl not weird!) right? i was really engrossed with that book though... Before i was reading 'diary of a Manhattan Call Girl'.. the ending fell a bit flat.. i really did wanna know how she got over the wedding but they jus eloped! They Just Eloped!! don't u get it? the whole story was building up on that... n the reader was given those 3 words! yes... they just eloped... grrr... it was pretty good though... funny.
I can hardly wait for my magical journey to Hogwarts!!! hahahaha! i loove harry potter n his friends...esp Ron to bits!! Don't really like hermoine though.. cos she's too smart.. hahaha... i hope harry won't die! n that prince better be as cute as Cedric! hahaha... i had a crush on him during the 'order of the phoenix'... he's sooo cute...ly described.. hahaa... and i hope cho chang will jus buzz of... cos she's sooo... unpredictably irritating...
Friday, July 1'♥
Do u know?... i read at least 6 blogs every night? serious.. i like to see whats going on in that blogger's life.. its like watching some drama series but in words n at your own time. i like it.
anyways.. my day was good.. i spent hell lot of time with sarah today (since 11-5pm + 1hr chat on the phone)..! n we talked abt hell lots of stuffs... gee... everything except studying for our french test.. which we'll most prob fail n can forget abt getting an A for it... grr...
After sch i went shOOOOping! i spent my whole mth's allowance! but it was the SALE.. n Miss Sixty was like having 50% off EVERYTHING! WHO CAN RESIST THAT?!.. i cant think of anyone.. those who're too rich? heehees..n DKNY too.. but it wasn't really fantastic though..cos after the discount, the stuffs are still quite ex n tops are really PLAIN.. i bought my granny top frm there.. i hope its nice.. at least i THINK its nice...ALSO, ZARA is having sale too.. but it isn't as fantastic as MANGO's..cos the stuffs aren't really nice n not much sizes left. I think MANGO sale is the best.. though the crowd is rather scary but the clothes are really cheap n they have a lot of basics in diff colours.. n stuffs can get super cheap..
I'm seriously broke n need a job! i really wanna work for Miss Sixty (i guess many other girls as well) cos u can wear cool trendy stuff n its not really hectic...cos not many ppl walk-in n try all the time.. unlike Gio.. it always has endless flood of ppl flocking to them like when chickens see grains...(hahas..a bit off) n u'll have to keep folding clothes n the clothes they give u aren't really cool n trendy.. SO PLS! any passer-bys or frens! Inform me if u know of any job vacancies in Club 21 or The Link!!! help!
i realise my blog is getting boring.. cos i haven't met up with anything weird n funny yet... like wad i used to (my hungry maid.. the maid who goes out in the nite.. my annoying tuition kid..) i shld OPEN my eyes BIGGER... n SEE stuffs...