Thursday, April 28'♥
Its official...i'm an ugly girl... *laughs* it was double impact for a day! haha... anyways... here's hw it went...
i was chatting with this new friend of mine i got to know from friendster... we have the same friends n we're in the same sch so i added him in my msn. Well... he sorta asked me out on a date but i told him i'm attached. To make him feel better (he kept saying he's disappointed..) so i reached for i don't know if its a lie cos i haven't really seen him before... i told him that he is sooo good lookin he can get any single n fabulous girl anywhere. Then he went on sayin that he ain't a looker (not exact words, it was long) n he don't go for looks and he were to go for looks he would've woo-ed my girlfriend ,E (not mentioning her name cos i don't want her to be too full of herself..haha). He wanted to woo me cos of a 'feeling' he claimed to have. Now... any guys with brains will not say such a thing to a girl..! Esp someone whom he claimed to have feelings for. No wonder singapore has so many dating agencies n dating etiquette classes cos guys need to be taught on what to say n what NOT to say to a girl.
i'm not angry with him... but i was seriously soo suprised by what he said. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions and i respect that. But u don't go to a person u just know n tell 'em ur best fren is hotter than u. I'm not sure which part of it is wrong but it shouldn't be said out... it should be kept inside. yes...
... i'm seriously nt affected by what he said.. because...why should i?
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Anyways, i'm still very excited about my burfdae... hahahahah
besides that i just learnt tt my appeal letter got rejected... now i feel sad... but at least i get to stay in sch... sigh...low standards...
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The hols are really getting on my nerves... i got NOTHING to do... and my boo doesn't help to make things better.. he's been travelling around the world!!..and YES...without me!...its nt as if he didn't ask...my parents won't let me. BUT..he could've shorten his trip or not go at all...
*end of unreasonable yammer-ing*
... i'm booooored to core... tell me! tell me! what should i do?! grr...
I am officially the suai-est person in the world! serious..no joke! here it goes...
I was depositing money at this machine n i exceeded the time frame so the machine 'ate-up' my card for safe-keeping...i panicked so i called the helpline and the operater says the status of the card is returned. I had to block the card and wait for a week before the new one comes... now i cant even buy stuff! no nets! no master! nothing! nada! meiyou! nggak ada! well...tt's about the languages i know...
AND...i don't know...i lost my online shopping a/c pin! i can't even shop online now!... grrrr!!! its like the WHOLE world is stopping me frm shopping! i have to go against all odds!... all i can do is wait..wait wait...deng! tunggu! *yammers on...*
well...the only good thing that i'm looking forward is my 18th Birthday!!yay! hahaha... *reminder, its on 22nd may!* i know...so close ready rite...!! its less than a mth away!! hahahahas... its MY DAY...well... i don't know what to expect from my friends... i hope i'll get pleasant suprises!...*hints* hahaha
presents presents... hahaha... i'm so excited...
Saturday, April 23'♥
Its weird not having u around...
the night is so quiet without your phone call... and ur super lame...erm...conversation...whatever u say is lame anyways
how i wish the world is smaller... there's only this island..and people don't move around so much or so far...
then again... how i wish u can bring me along... to see what u see.. to feel what u feel and to touch what u touch... we can make little discoveries together...
i wish there were no past.. we all start on a clean slate... then there wouldn't be doubts about the past or anything to hide...
i wish i know everything...then i wouldn't be so confuse... and wrong...
i want to believe in what i think is right...
i want to be happy...n contented... and i will be! well... not near... but i WILL BE...
Tuesday, April 19'♥
Hie...i cheered up myself today... my last entry sounded so sad hor... hahaha but now i'm more than fine! i'm happ....ier! hahaha lots happier! thanks kelebin! sorry for calling u at such uncivilised hour...muahahaha...u're such a great buddy...i loveu!!
Last night i was thinking wayyyyyy too much... like alot more than the 'y's here... so everything was in my head and not real... well it was quite a waste of time thinking all those rubbish but ya... its great for killing time though...hahaha....
wow... i feel so happy today....
if u're a magnet...i'll be your steel board
if u're a light bulb...i'll be the tungsten
if u're a bank...i'll be the money
if u're a pen...i'll be the ink...
hahaha.... i'm so lamed!...
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I don't know why...i've been feeling really down these few days... help!... i don't wanna spend my hols this way...*sigh*
I feel sad... i feel small and i feel my prescence don't make any difference...
I feel that my feelings are being neglected
I don't feel loved... cared..
Is it me and my head making it all up or is it all true? What's wrong with everything?... does anyone even care?
Was i such a bitch that i deserve all these?
Or is it wrong to ask to be treated like a princess for awhile?
What did i do wrong?
i am so screwed.
Sunday, April 17'♥
hmms... holidays are suppose to be fun..yea i agree with u sarah. and i wish i have school now too... sighs...then during my freetime.. i think... a hell lot.. of rubbish...
yeeps... my life is still pretty boring... i still haven't done anything to make it more...colourful as i said...
What is it about holidays? when they're here we wish u had school but when u're having school u'ld wish the otherwise. Why are we NEVER contented?!! Seriously, why? If we have like a week of sch and a week of hols... will things be better? Will we be more contented?
Sunday, April 10'♥
*swapping away all cobwebs and dusting my blog...* haha... well.. no la... just adding in an entry not re-vamping anything.
Anyways, life has been 'OKAY' as in a BIG one... everything is fine (besides my hair... its going hay wire..) and its just smoooooth-sailing... my boo and i are just fine.
I feel bored... everything is just so.. there.. so predictable. There isn't anything to look forward to and ya... nothing. I just stay home or go out and meet some frens then come home and the rest are the usuals (tv, on the phone...)... why is my life so.... BORING... well actually people will refer me as a 'NO-LIFE-er'...grrr... but what can i do? Seriously, what is there for me to do? or add into my life to make it...erms... colourful?
i know how Eunice Olsen will reply me for sure, 'Come! Join the BABES! We need teens like you to help teens like you who're in trouble!' the 98.7 fm ad on the BABES affected me so much... i even dreamt about Eunice Olsen saying the above!
Talking about ex-ms Singapore, the new Ms Singapore '05 is out.. i can tell what everyone's (stereotyping..) reaction will be... it'll be either KINDER or PURE CRUDE...
The Kinder ones will be 'I think she's smart but definately don't have the looks..'
The Crude ones will go ' Wha Lau! This kind of face also can win...seriously i think we're making a fool of ourselves by sending a singaporean girl like that there! Alamak.'
I swear i heard both of that on the bus!
Well, last year, there was this indian lady watching Ms Singapore Finals'04 on the bus with her fren. She was commenting on the girls NON-STOP... like 'huh.. like that can win already ar? Then i can also join!' or 'I think its a total disgrace to be a singaporean women lor! look at them la! the world is going to think all singaporean girls look like that!' her friend was like nodding all the way. I was rather appalled by her comments... and i still am.
Why should we care about Ms Universe when we ALL know its just all about the CROWN and .... the swimsuit segment...then again victoria's secret always do a better job than Ms Universe's. Because what has ANY Ms Universe in the history did any UNIVERSAL DEED? RIGHT? *indignant expression*
Whether or not our Singapore girl is pretty or ugly... has a tummy or small eyes (sounds like me...) fret not! all we need is some singapore girl... who... is as magnanimous! and prove to the World...true beauty is being beautiful inside too (with no lies about world peace..)!