I'm fumming mad!... does he give a f**kin damn about me?! i mean... i'm a girl! don't i deserve RESPECT! GrrrRRRRrrrrrRRRR!! It was a WRONG-EST thing to do (besides cheating her) to a girl! Just wad the heck he takes me as? SOme call girl? so whenever he needs me he can jus call n expect to see me there with my BIG WATERY n FORLORN eyes looking at him?! argh!...wad a jack-ass! i hate him... ugh! f**k it..!


a sudden urge to blog..nothing much happened today. Met Sharnice at O'briens (they have nice toufu steak..serious!). Went for tennis had quite alot of fun. Someone asked me out n i'm still delirious abt it.


OOee..went out with calvin today!..Enjoyed myself thoroughly!! We went to watch Sky Captain & the Adventures of the World! Its damn nice! Go watch it! i watched it cos Angelina Jolie was in it but she only appeared for like 30 mins?..but it was a good movie.. set in the 50's where fedoras, tweed n trench coats were in.. n so ever sexy! however, singapore's hot n humid weather did nt allow women here to look sexy in those... sad...tragedy for romancing singapore.. hw to even make babies when we cant look sexy?! When i was a kid, i always thought 50's was the Romance era.. like thats when Superman saved Lois and their romance started frm then on.. it had lots of romance classics that made love sound so ..erm.. perfect..even if in Sepia n not perfectly clear digital colours like now. I think romance is changing. People's perception of Romance have changed..drastically. Clearly, frm the movies there's significant changes...just look---->down: 50's - Super heros were the IN thing (superman saving lois n they fell in love) 60's - High Sch romances (grease) even dance sch like Saturday Night Fever! 80's - Hippies days and Divourcees falling for their lawyer ( Cher's movie with danny devito) 90's - Falling in love when there's crisis ( Dante's peak , Titantic, speed... so very many!) NOW...- Singnificant historic romances or teen flicks and includes alot of sex ( troy, alexander...crazy/beautiful) Times are really changing.. n so are the taste-buds for romance flicks.. Anyway, i miss school already... its not even 1 week of the hols n i'm missing people watching at sch..n crapping with my frens.. i'm bored at home.. my hols could have been better if i have money..( dad was peeping what i'm blogging behind me! reminding him tt he's late..for transfering my pocket money!) .. hope he gt the hint! he better cos i'm broke n grouchy n broke...


aniway.. its not related to what i'm gonna say... oooeee... i watched OUIJA BOARD today... i mean i did catch most of the story behind my hands! but i still caught the ghosts TWICE...its an achivement! at least for me..so i guess its ok to catch the exorcist nw! hmm... i think i'm evil... i'm keeping my fren's blog window (nt reading the contents) just to hear the music... its acid jazz... damn nice! but i lied to him that i was reading it so din reply his msgs frm then..evil? no!... he din put what song is it in his blog... he's the evil one cos he's nt sharing the good stuffs! Went to have a lil gathering with my sec sch frens the other day.. they have changed so MUCH..like their appearance! wow... n i still look the same! its time for a new haircut! and all of them like most of them brought their BFs... so it was quite different like the air was different.. love was in the air? but we did much catchin up!..i was happy abt that... oh and ISKANDAR! I swear i'm in tennis club! PLS believe me!... oooo...sarah-ann, steve they're goin away...n mic (think he left me to tt grand electrical fair! cos he hasn't been calling!..u sucker!)... i'm now left with onli ERICA! hahaha!...but she's enough to handle! ya... she slapped my butt n the pain din subside onli after 20 mins+!! but i'm still happy that she's there when i need her!... ya biatch!.. Life is so complex... even though the world is:


I'm still adjusting to the 'no more mugging' mode.. i feel weird coming home not rushing to bathe then have a power nap and study like nuts after that... that has been my rountine for the past week.. it drained me dry..like real dry! i'm not sure if i'm happy that the exams have ended.. cos i feel fear...fear of failing n getting 2 Fs( biz stats is a F for sure cos its...ya...damn tough!) ... anyway i'm gonna push that to the back of my brains.. I am sooo very excited about my thailand trip!!! hahaha! yay! my long awaited vacation with ericA! mUahahaha! gonna buy ALOT of skirts n skirts n skirts! n clothes n clothes n clothes! n shorts n shorts n shorts!... oooeee..!!


i was watching this channel 8 show its like the singapore version of 'extreme makeover' but not that extreme.. they only try to make people slim down so that they'll feel better about themselves... there's was this 25 yr old mum of 1 kid.. but she looks 40! her figure before she got pregnant n after she gave birth was a world of difference! she aged sooo much... eye-bags, huge saggy boobs, big butt...the lists goes on... n she's so young! she still has a whole life ahead of her... i didn't having a baby can make a woman LOOK that diff... but why does she wants to be a mum so young...what will happen to HER life? the one before all the mamy pokos come into the picture? after much pondering i have derived only this: cute baby CRYING+ huge saggyboobs n butt+ dark eye rings+ lovely hushband who thinks u still look fab. = happy myself? NO! i thought of this instead: cute baby that doesn't cry+firm boobs n ass+ lovely hushband who thinks i look fab.= BLISS! WAIT! this is seriously not going to happen! how can i achieve firm boobs n ass if there's a baby infront... when i watched the show with my mum, even she turned n looked at the mirror herself... n told me about the stretch marks (oh! i forgot to add in the stretch marks)..she said... it jus so happens that the marks are "PERMERNANT"... it might not sound that serious to ur *hushband/bf (*delete accordingly) but i'm sure it is important to women... will i still be happy n confident? or will my kids call me 'fat mum'? or even worse... my hushband wouldn't want to walk beside me on the streets...i suddenly find that channel 8 show so heroic.. they're saving someone's self-esteem there..! n its important! so its like this:


huh... i think i'm seriously going crazy... i don't understand probability at all...grrr... not that i haven't tried. I did... for like 3 hrs straight... then i gave up.. n did smthg which i know better... i think i'm seriously screwed... its hell difficult! grr...*grabs hair n pulling hard* Watched singapore idol the other day... to my disgust, Jerry Ong was still singing on the stage with that 'i don't know what you call that but it looks awful' look on his face... singing... wad which looks utterly WRONG... like he shouldn't even be there!.. think his singing n mine can compare.. like compare who is worse.. to even compare with me is bad enough larh! i hope he'll be out by nxt week... or... i'll join the next idol!! n let viewers suffer with my hideous n wayyyy outta tune voice! n i'll make sure i sing chinese songs! muahahaha... Went out with the surfers club-bers!!..haha.. suppose to watch 'saved' but the guy gave us tix for 'wimbledon'.. n we din noe till we were abt to go in..n coincidentally saw my fren whom i din noe why i got so excited abt... the show truned out to be pretty nice... it was romantic n sweet..yup.. something that is always in the movies n almost never gonna happen in reality..so..sad..anyway.. we got a refund! so we watched a free show... yay.. that's the highlight of this paragraph! *gRinz* i like gelato-s.... they're so... tangy...hmmm....


hmm... been a long time since i've blogged.. because something really sad happened today.. it started from FRIENDSTER...I received a msg from someone.... someone old...like twice my age! He asked me if i'm interested in getting into a replationship with him... WTF? Even worse when he looks like my dad's fren who's 40+... ugh... do i look that mature? or even worse...that OLD?... ugh... even worse... he calls himself EzzyHot... I swear to myself that even when i reach 40 n a single n still a virgin.. iwill never use such a nick!...fancy callin yourself HOT... ugh... But what if that really happens to me.. what if i'm still a single n a virgin at 40?..will i be desperate n join online dating as well?... n call myself.. some corny name?... n msg some boy who's 20 n still serving his NS... ugh... i'll hate myself... its like lookin for a toy boy... n i'll be the one taking viagra!...*horrific expression on my face!*... think its exam stress that's manifesting into such thoughts...


Went shopping with my mum the other day... reaped some good harvests though!*sMile* Bought a new mambo skirt..its so cute..yay! I think Marissa in 'The O.C' is soooo dumb! i cant help but say..hw can anyone in the world give up such a perfect relationship?! n even the...i dun noe... those who never watch the O.C will know Oliver is nuts! yea...marissa is dumb... Haven't been blogging much... soo many things had happened n i'm still at the midst of them all... why? all at the same time?...*siGh* ooo... i miss carrie bradshaw... my downloads are soo very slow...ugh...*slaps forehead*....

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